what does he want to do with me!!
he just canceled tomorrow.
does it mean doesn't want to go?
or does it means he just can't because he's busy?

if he doesn't want to see me, just say it in the first place!

no me tortures asi, really!

to get over

seal it, lock it

don't look back

but if you're not strong enough

you'll just have to erase it.

すべて

まだ未熟で

重ねらんないの


悲しい歌より悲しい今

まだ何も始まってないの

でももう終わりなの


…終わりなの？

just say the words
I'm okay
it will hurt but I need it
in order to move on

please
don't hold me
I want to go on forward
but without the words, I can't

just say it
it takes only a second

I need it to know
that we are not meant to be.

we we we...
Love is in the air!!
Let's see, one friend is having a baby and getting married,
one is living with her boyfriend,
one is been with her boyfriend for 4 years

What's happening?
Why is everyone steady already?
We're only 20, right?
While I have no significant other,
everyone is with their love of their life!!

How come they find him in such short time?

I wanna see you someday
Why don't we go out for a walk,
or to the nearest park to talk?

How have you been these years?
We've been apart for a long time
I need to catch up on what happened

What are you doing at the moment?
I see it's been hard for you recently
I had hard times too, why don't we share?

What do you see in the sky?
There's a lot that we can do
Why won't we go for it?

相手に引かれたか？
まあ自分の中では冗談でもないんだけど…
冗談風に言ったのを引かれたらどうしようもないよね！？
やらかしたな、自分…
なんかもうわからんよ。
終わってるのかもしれない。
終わってるものにいつまでもひっついてるだけなのかもしれない。
だって実感がないもの。
これってものがないもの。
全部足し算で答えだしてくださいなのかな？
でも一生懸命引き算してる自分。
そうじゃないの、まだ望みはあるのって…

こんなんじゃ終わるに終われない…

I wish it will be.Well, it is at the moment.
First of all, I passed the secretary exam!
And my period came... this was really a relieving happening.
It is troublesome, but it means I'mm healthy.
Well, still gotta keep track of my basal body temperature!

And if I could meet him... I will not beg for anything!!

Today... a test and a speech.
I wonder if could make it...?

I put up this poem type thingy on the other blog.
There's about 60 people who read this blog... but only 2 people replied.
One person... I never met her in real life.
She doesn't even understand English entirely but she tried translating it, and even put her feelings to it.
I call those people 'real friends'.

The other person was 'the person'.
He texted me to translate it for him.


Isn't that a normal thing?
I didn't use hard words on the whole blog.
If you really think about the person, won't you wonder what it says?
There's a whole bunch on people who understands English, but no one, absolutley NO ONE replied.
mite minu furi.
That's the reason why I can't trust them.

I admire those who can do what they want to do.
I mean... you know... the "L" stuff.
I just don't have the courage...too scary to know the truth.
What if I'm dumped? It's the end of the whole story.
If it is OK, well there's nothing better than that...
but it's too risky.
If I don't take the risk, I can keep on wondering inside the fancy of mine.
'Friends' forever.